I can't make you love me.

Turn down the lights

Turn down the bed

Turn down these voices inside my head

Lay down with me, tell me no lies

Just hold me close, don't patronize

Don't patronize me.

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't

You can't make your heart feel something it won't

Here in the dark, in these final hours

I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power

But you won't, no you won't

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't.

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see

The love you don't feel when you're holding me

Morning will come and I'll do what's right

Just give me till then to give up this fight

And I will give up this fight.

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't

You can't make your heart feel something it won't

Here in the dark, in these final hours

I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power

But you won't, no you won't

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't

Wow,

It's been quite a while since I've posted. I don't find blogging to be as much of a stress reliever lately because of how busy I am. First off, high school is hard. I never thought that going into a new school would be so difficult for me. I felt like I was forced to face some people that I have had a lot of anguish towards. The little things that they kept posting on their Facebook, the faces they would give me in the hall, and so much more would hurt me really bad. With theses things came the feelings that I had experienced a year ago. The ones that made it so I couldn't sleep at night. Then came math. This little thing made it nearly impossible for me to be happy. I didn't understand a single thing that was going on. I have never struggled in any of my classes before. I was so frustrated because I would look down at my homework assignment and have no idea what was even going on. It was hard for me to hold back the tears that I wanted to cry so badly during class. So many things were making me very unhappy. But after the help of many people, I finally feel happy again.

• Dakota: Willingly came and tutored me and sat down with me for hours on end, and helped me when no one else could. 
• Caroline: Always helped me escape and vent to her when I was overwhelmed and loved me for me. Let me listen to the songs in the car that I would cry to and convinced me that everything would get better.
• Adele: I know it sounds stupid that someone famous that I don't even know could help me, but it's true. Her music told me that how I felt was okay and that it's not wrong to be upset about something. There would be times where I couldn't feel better without listening to her music. And I love her for that. 
• Taylor: My foreign exchange student that I love with all my heart. The one that let me be the idiotic person that I am. We bonded over our love for Adele and our need to play the piano and guitar. But one thing that Taylor did for me was something I could never thank her enough for. There are so many. I don't think she even can imagine. The first English class we had together, she told me to do something that I hated. Read. I doubt she even remembers telling me that. But for some reason I tried it out again and fell in love. Everything I needed I could find in a book. To me it was like hearing a new song. One that you fall in love with, but the difference was that I could listen to this song nonstop for days. I love it. And I could never thank her enough.

There's So Much to be Thankful For.

Thanksgiving.

That word means so much more this year.

As I get older, it becomes much easier for me to recognize my blessings. But it also gets harder for me to appreciate them. I sometimes take what I have for granted, like many people. But I am slowly learning to look around and realize that everything around me is a sweet miracle. The life I have, my family, my friends, smiling babies, the beautiful season. 

There's so much to be thankful for.

This holiday season may be a little different for me. We found out my uncle has pancreatic cancer. It was a huge eye opener for me. I prayed and fasted for my uncle to be okay. I was scared of hearing how much "time" he had left. After he had a biopsy, we learned that he was in the 5% of patients that have the type of cancer that isn't fatal. It was a miracle. It was a huge relief for everyone. Even though what he has ahead of him will be far from easy, he will defeat this trial. I am so thankful for this. 

So not only this holiday season, but as time goes on, I am going to  try to always remember, 

there's so much to be thankful.

I encourage you to do the same. Everyday that our life goes on and the time we get to spend with the people is a complete blessing. My life is so amazing and there isn't one thing that I would want to change about it. The song below explains everything perfectly.

There's so much to be thankful for- Josh Groban

More NAILS!

Here are a few more nails designs I have recently done.

Nails

Yay,

Another nail post!!!

Haha.

I'll make this short and sweet.

This is rainbow crackle nails.

My Best Friend.

I seriously can't imagine my life without Devin.

The past two years my life has been completely different because of him.

He is a person that I can honestly always rely on.

He has helped me through some of the toughest parts of my life.

He never ever judges me and always try's to understand me.

He accepts my total weirdness and moodiness.

He gives good advice and always listens when you just need someone to talk to.

He goes camping with me and drives the razor when I don't want to.

He goes with me to clean even though it freaks him out too.

He takes me to kiwi loco and paints piggy banks.

He embarrasses me publicly because he knows I hate it.

He wins little minion teddy bears at walmart.

He lets me go over to his house all the time.

He takes me home late at night.

He is the best friend I could ever ask for.

:)

I highly recommend stopping the music at the bottom of my blog before watching this.
Oh and this is the other half of his present but I don't have any cd's to burn it on.
Oh and one last thing, that first picture was taken was taken 3 years ago!!

Newspaper.

Okay so anyone who knows me knows that I think naked nails are a eternal sin.

I know I'm a freak.

Haha.

Anyway. I follow this blog and this lady that does insane nails.

Literaly, insane.

So a little while ago I saw this one nails design that was newspaper nails.

I had to try it, but I never have newspaper or rubbing alcohol.

So months later my sister saw this girl that had them, so thank you Hails for going and purchasing the items needed!

So here is how it worked out, 

Pretty good and super easy, and definitively not the hardest nail design I've done.

Oh and please excuse the mess around the nails. I always wash them really good to get the polish on the skin off.

Here it is.