Fathers Day

The person who has always made his little girls laugh.

The person who has always made his little girls feel like they were the most important people in his life.

The person who has always put family first.

The person who is has always been by our side.

My Dad. The person who has always provided a place for me to go. The person who has always made me feel safe. The person who can always put a smile on my face. The person who has taught me to work hard. The person who has taught me respect and gratitude. The    man that is the most excellent example of what a man should be. I love him more than anything. I hope that my husband will be exactly like you. I am so thankful that I get to hug him every day. 

I love you, Dad.

Fun fun.

I tried my hand today at editing pictures of myself very cool. I think I succeeded. 

I thought that this next one was pretty amaze. I absolutely love it! :)

Music....

I can honestly say that I've built my life upon music. I am almost always singing a song or listening to music. So I thought I would share with you some of my favorite songs.

• All time favorite song: Hands down, no questions asked, Mindy Gledhill- All About Your Heart. This song reminds me of everything good about the people in my life I love. I will dance to this song at my wedding and it will be the first song my children will ever listen to. I love it so much and words can not explain my love for it. It makes me cry, smile, and laugh because it is so beautiful. 

To listen to it click here.

• Favorite happy song: I'd probably have to say The Good Life by OneRepublic. This song makes me so happy. It is me and my moms song. :) I also want to travel a lot and it makes me excited to see the world. There is a line in this song that i love so much. "When you're happy like a fool let it take you over. When everything is out, you gotta take it in." For realssss. I LOVE it.

To listen to it click here.

• Favorite sad song: Breakeven by The Script. I always listen to this song when I feel sad. I think it captures perfect emotion when you've had your heart broken. It is absolutely amazing.

To listen to it Click here.

• Favorite love song: Faithfully by Journey. It's a classic. I love how it talks about struggle that comes with being in love, but how no matter what he will be with her! I LOVE IT!

To listen to it Click here.

• A song that I just love: Gotta have You by The Weepies. My sister introduced me to The Weepies and at first I absolutely hated them, then I heard this song. The simplicity and emotion of this song made me fall in love with it. The line in this song, "I won't be warm til I'm lying in your arms." AWH!!! By the way, the people in this band are married to each other. Freakin' cute. I love this song. 

To listen to it Click here.

• A song I have recently fallen in love with: So I'm absolutely in love with this show called "Platinum Hit." They write songs. Okay so this week they had to write a song about taking a road trip. Let me tell you. I cried when I heard two of the songs. Especially when I heard my second favorite persons song. Her name is Jes Hudak. Watch out world. She is amazing. LISTEN! I mean it has to be good when Natasha Beddingfeild says she want's to sing it. GAH! So good. Then my favorite person name Johnny Marnell won this weeks challenge. Oh and did I mention he and Jes are falling in love? YAY!!!! ahh, anyway his song was amazing too. LISTEN!!! If Jes & Johnny get married can you imagine how insanely talented there children would be. Okay, enough Whitney!

I think I am going to do a different post later about Platinum Hit. Hahahaha. Thanks Dudes. Peace out.

I don't know what to say.

My whole life I have always had a way with words.

 I've always been able to speak in front of people or strike up conversations with anyone. I've always been able to write stories and papers well, and I've always been able to write songs. But lately things have been different. I don't want to talk to people, I don't want to write stories, and I haven't been able to write songs.

 For the first time in my life, I don't know what to say.

It's been affecting me so much, especially when it comes to writing songs. I feel like I'm letting people down, but mostly myself. I keep trying to find explanations for why this is happening. I remember thinking when I wrote a song that it would fix friendships, make everything better, or make the boy that I have written so many songs for like me back, because that's what a song does for me. I'm not confident in what I am writing anymore. The last song I wrote makes me cry almost every single time I sing it but I feel like it means nothing to anyone else. Maybe that's why I can't write. I'm  so frustrated with all of this and I feel like I have no one to talk to and relate with. I miss the person I was a year ago. The girl that could sit down and write a song if someone said she couldn't. The girl that challenged everything through a song. The girl that was inspired by the people she was surrounded by. The girl that was going to be famous. The girl that knew she was good enough to preform on a big stage in front of hundreds of people. The girl that knew she could change the world with just her words. 

Where did she go?

It's been such a sudden change and it's making me so unhappy. I go to sit down at the piano or pick up my guitar and start to cry because I know what I need to do, but I can't. This isn't a sickness that can be fixed with medicine or the support of family and friends, and it's not that serious to other people. But it is to me. This blog is the only way I can get my words out, but to me it doesn't have the impact a song had on me. 

So all you might here from me for a while is nothing

Love

I remember the day perfectly. My Mom, Sister, and I went shopping. When we came home my mom went to the movies and me and my sister went to look at the view on the Buttes. When we got home there was a cop car down the street, my dad was gone. I had a horrible feeling in my stomach, like I knew something was wrong. I immediately said a prayer. About 5 minutes later my dad came into my house in wet pants and tears in his eyes. I asked him what happened and he hesitantly told me that the grand daughter of my wonderful neighbor drown in a canal next to my house. I was so upset, like anyone would be. I remember calling one of my best friends crying. He was so understanding, he told me everything would be okay. 

Well this little girls name was Preslee Sullenger. She didn't die immediately like we had thought, which was a miracle because she was in the water for almost an hour. For one week little Preslee fought for her precious life. When she was in the hospital, friends and family posted on their blog about Preslee's progress. I remember reading the post and crying because the family was so strong and the little girl pushed to live. I remember where I was when I read the post that she had passed away. 

Her story touched me. She did so much in the short time she lived. I felt so much love for this little girl that I didn't even know. When ever I am feeling sad or upset I read the posts in her story and it makes me so thankful for what I have been given. I have never experienced a loss like that. Today when I was reading her blog, this post really moved me. I encourage you to read Preslee's story, it is truely life changing.

We all love her and her family. They are constantly in my thoughts and prayers and I am so thankful that I have had the opportunity to offer them that. They are outstanding strong people. Click here to visit the family blog.