Sophomore.

Sophomore year has ended... 

It was incredibly long, but unbelievably short.

So many excited things happened to me and there are lessons that I have learned that I will never forget.

This year took me on serious adventures. 

Time to reflect....

HOMECOMING....

My first dance ever. I went with my best friend and had the absolute time of my life. We danced the night away.

DRAMA STATE...

This laid back insane trip was lovely. This was where I really grew close to some amazing people. We had crazy adventures in my room with a plugged toilet and Taylor turning the heat up to 89 and our total transformation into black women. :)

SALT LAKE...

This is a horrible picture, by one of my fondest memories this year. It was so fun to go around Salt Lake and being trapped on a bus because the wind speed was dangerous. :)

SPRING FLING...

This was probably my fondest memory of this year. I had so much fun with these ladies. Especially Caroline. It was a magical night! :)

CALIFORNIA...

I literally took maybe two pictures on this trip. Which is extremely disappointing. It was amazing. Disneyland especially. I met and bonded with new people and it was such a great experience.

These are just a few of the amazing things I did this year. It was so amazing. 

Now we'll reflect on a few amazing people... 

Caroline. She is a beautiful young girl. Through all her heartbreak and sadness she never fails to put a smile on my face. I think it is beautiful that we can go from tears running down our faces to laughing so hard that we can't stop. She is truly one of the least selfish people I have ever met and her greatest quality is the love and patience she has for other people. I love her more than any words could ever say. 

Jakub. The crazy foreign for Slovakia. We laughed endlessly with each other and did the absolute dumbest things. Haha. A smile automatically comes to my face with the thought of you. You were so mean to me but I know you always had good intentions because you wanted me to be blonde again. All I can say is I love you and America will miss you.

Taylor. She knows how much I love her. She is so selfless and loves everyone. She made me love myself and taught me what beauty really is. She is absolutely amazing. She is going to go so far. Australia, I love you.

Toby. You are so chill. So funny. So yourself. I never even noticed your accent. :) Our crazy memories with the weird Chinese people that serve us at Chinese restaurants. You will be missed, especially by me and Caroline but whenever I hear Sexy and I know it, I will definitely think of you. :D

Sadly, this year. The world lost one of the most beautiful souls. Alex Kidd. Her sister Nikki, is one of my closest friends. The few times that I saw her, she had a smile on her face. I have never been to a more beautiful memorial service for a person. The atmosphere was filled with love and warmth. Alex will always be remembered by every person she came in contact with. I know I will never forget her. She lived her life to the fullest and was a true example of what a friend should be. She will be forever remembered and forever missed.

I can't make you love me.

Turn down the lights

Turn down the bed

Turn down these voices inside my head

Lay down with me, tell me no lies

Just hold me close, don't patronize

Don't patronize me.

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't

You can't make your heart feel something it won't

Here in the dark, in these final hours

I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power

But you won't, no you won't

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't.

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see

The love you don't feel when you're holding me

Morning will come and I'll do what's right

Just give me till then to give up this fight

And I will give up this fight.

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't

You can't make your heart feel something it won't

Here in the dark, in these final hours

I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power

But you won't, no you won't

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't

Wow,

It's been quite a while since I've posted. I don't find blogging to be as much of a stress reliever lately because of how busy I am. First off, high school is hard. I never thought that going into a new school would be so difficult for me. I felt like I was forced to face some people that I have had a lot of anguish towards. The little things that they kept posting on their Facebook, the faces they would give me in the hall, and so much more would hurt me really bad. With theses things came the feelings that I had experienced a year ago. The ones that made it so I couldn't sleep at night. Then came math. This little thing made it nearly impossible for me to be happy. I didn't understand a single thing that was going on. I have never struggled in any of my classes before. I was so frustrated because I would look down at my homework assignment and have no idea what was even going on. It was hard for me to hold back the tears that I wanted to cry so badly during class. So many things were making me very unhappy. But after the help of many people, I finally feel happy again.

• Dakota: Willingly came and tutored me and sat down with me for hours on end, and helped me when no one else could. 
• Caroline: Always helped me escape and vent to her when I was overwhelmed and loved me for me. Let me listen to the songs in the car that I would cry to and convinced me that everything would get better.
• Adele: I know it sounds stupid that someone famous that I don't even know could help me, but it's true. Her music told me that how I felt was okay and that it's not wrong to be upset about something. There would be times where I couldn't feel better without listening to her music. And I love her for that. 
• Taylor: My foreign exchange student that I love with all my heart. The one that let me be the idiotic person that I am. We bonded over our love for Adele and our need to play the piano and guitar. But one thing that Taylor did for me was something I could never thank her enough for. There are so many. I don't think she even can imagine. The first English class we had together, she told me to do something that I hated. Read. I doubt she even remembers telling me that. But for some reason I tried it out again and fell in love. Everything I needed I could find in a book. To me it was like hearing a new song. One that you fall in love with, but the difference was that I could listen to this song nonstop for days. I love it. And I could never thank her enough.

There's So Much to be Thankful For.

Thanksgiving.

That word means so much more this year.

As I get older, it becomes much easier for me to recognize my blessings. But it also gets harder for me to appreciate them. I sometimes take what I have for granted, like many people. But I am slowly learning to look around and realize that everything around me is a sweet miracle. The life I have, my family, my friends, smiling babies, the beautiful season. 

There's so much to be thankful for.

This holiday season may be a little different for me. We found out my uncle has pancreatic cancer. It was a huge eye opener for me. I prayed and fasted for my uncle to be okay. I was scared of hearing how much "time" he had left. After he had a biopsy, we learned that he was in the 5% of patients that have the type of cancer that isn't fatal. It was a miracle. It was a huge relief for everyone. Even though what he has ahead of him will be far from easy, he will defeat this trial. I am so thankful for this. 

So not only this holiday season, but as time goes on, I am going to  try to always remember, 

there's so much to be thankful.

I encourage you to do the same. Everyday that our life goes on and the time we get to spend with the people is a complete blessing. My life is so amazing and there isn't one thing that I would want to change about it. The song below explains everything perfectly.

There's so much to be thankful for- Josh Groban

More NAILS!

Here are a few more nails designs I have recently done.

Nails

Yay,

Another nail post!!!

Haha.

I'll make this short and sweet.

This is rainbow crackle nails.

My Best Friend.

I seriously can't imagine my life without Devin.

The past two years my life has been completely different because of him.

He is a person that I can honestly always rely on.

He has helped me through some of the toughest parts of my life.

He never ever judges me and always try's to understand me.

He accepts my total weirdness and moodiness.

He gives good advice and always listens when you just need someone to talk to.

He goes camping with me and drives the razor when I don't want to.

He goes with me to clean even though it freaks him out too.

He takes me to kiwi loco and paints piggy banks.

He embarrasses me publicly because he knows I hate it.

He wins little minion teddy bears at walmart.

He lets me go over to his house all the time.

He takes me home late at night.

He is the best friend I could ever ask for.

:)

I highly recommend stopping the music at the bottom of my blog before watching this.
Oh and this is the other half of his present but I don't have any cd's to burn it on.
Oh and one last thing, that first picture was taken was taken 3 years ago!!